After my lunch break, I came back and check out my Facebook which I have been quite frequent to online and check. I have added HIM before as I remember but suddenly I cant find him at all, finally I have created another account and search him by using Find Friender and I have seek out something has tremendously HURT directly. Which maybe he never thought of I will find him in the friend finder.
Find out that has many things come up has make me mind gone wrong....honestly, I think he has changed. He is not really the person that I knew was previous in 3 years. Not the person which I know who is Honest and Loving and Caring anymore.
Yeah, I guess it is true...everyone has changed in the life for each of us. No matter how much we gives they will not appreciate in the end.......
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Lazy To Work
Its a wednesday morning, this morning wake up with a breezely air...its raining sizzling outside. Quite lazy to wake up from the bed and especially under the warmth blanket. Something which new for me, Skype. I never notice Skype can do many things include the phone calls.
Today gonna be my last 2 days in this coming in Premiere....well, things has gone easily and quickly..like my relationship...good things always happened and gone it fast under the river without anyone noticing. But one things good that, after each of the incident happened then people only reliazed to appreciate what they have it before. Or maybe I am wrong, please do correct me if you think I am really wrong in my opinion.
Tomorrow, should be my last day in this company.I have ready to pack all the stuffs last night since my colleagues has voluntary me to drive me home. Hmmm...why Happy Moments always awake when you have really fallen into it? But maybe, this is known as life...everyone cant predict things which we cant control it too. Sometime, I am thinking maybe the God wants us to know what the challenge in our life and what should and how we can handle our life in our palm. Do you all believe in palmistry? Sometime, people said palmistry line which also represent the life that you have walk through and need to walk through.
No matter, how tough and hard it is. We need to walk through passing our life. Each one of us, have different stories in our life. Happy and Sad, sorrow and exciting every moment we still need to walk by throughout the life.
I believe in fate and I believe we may control some situation but its too late when we have noticing it....
Today gonna be my last 2 days in this coming in Premiere....well, things has gone easily and quickly..like my relationship...good things always happened and gone it fast under the river without anyone noticing. But one things good that, after each of the incident happened then people only reliazed to appreciate what they have it before. Or maybe I am wrong, please do correct me if you think I am really wrong in my opinion.
Tomorrow, should be my last day in this company.I have ready to pack all the stuffs last night since my colleagues has voluntary me to drive me home. Hmmm...why Happy Moments always awake when you have really fallen into it? But maybe, this is known as life...everyone cant predict things which we cant control it too. Sometime, I am thinking maybe the God wants us to know what the challenge in our life and what should and how we can handle our life in our palm. Do you all believe in palmistry? Sometime, people said palmistry line which also represent the life that you have walk through and need to walk through.
No matter, how tough and hard it is. We need to walk through passing our life. Each one of us, have different stories in our life. Happy and Sad, sorrow and exciting every moment we still need to walk by throughout the life.
I believe in fate and I believe we may control some situation but its too late when we have noticing it....
Monday, April 21, 2008
Wake up in the Monday Afternoon
Huh....wakign up in the monday afternoon...suddenly feeling something loneliness...but no worry...I am listening to Jay Chou..阳光宅男......something which can refresh me from the sleep. Honestly, I have been quite often to sleep till noon now...dunno what has happened to me recently maybe its should be my health alarm has coming into me. Well, was thinking to have a medical check up through whole body to know what its going on. But dad's is nagging me everyday...when you're going to check on the medical check up...aiii...sometime bit irriratate too.
Now already 1:30pm, I wake up then had a porridge. The stomach not feeling too good honestly. And my head too, not feeling too good too..maybe the dizziness make me more worse than ever. Still have another week to go and I am waiting for my trip its coming to me...yay...I am going to a trip, good for me too for walking around and coincidencely my high school mate, she is going too....really hope to see the happening things could be happen there...I have not been so while with them...especially I was belong to HIM...at that time.
Now already 1:30pm, I wake up then had a porridge. The stomach not feeling too good honestly. And my head too, not feeling too good too..maybe the dizziness make me more worse than ever. Still have another week to go and I am waiting for my trip its coming to me...yay...I am going to a trip, good for me too for walking around and coincidencely my high school mate, she is going too....really hope to see the happening things could be happen there...I have not been so while with them...especially I was belong to HIM...at that time.
A Secret Love
Cant wake up on this morning due to having dizziness head and really a low blood pressure. Many things happened on the weekend which we cant predict yet. I have started to learn how to cook and making pastry at home....its a strawberry souffle. Downloading the Jay Chou song and send it over to HIM as well. Hardly to tell the feeling, but just that we chat as same in previous just one thing we feel the less pressure in between each and other. Sometime, thing that we cant predict even the next day or next morning.
Honestly, I cant predict myself that I cant wake up in the morning....due to low blood pressure. Mean while, many things we can predict....Oh yeah, what a coincidence my high school friend is going to Singapore as well this weekend. Last night, she text me and asked me where do I stay during my Singapore trip.
I told her, to text me when she is in Singapore.....cause we can meet up and hang up together. Its coming to the weekend then I am going to Singapore soon. Well, things can be happened very fast and things can turn around in very fast sapce too....Never have a thought a relationship can be complicated and as simple as a blank paper. We all feel sometime confused in a different situation, where we are in the triangular position.
Honestly, I cant predict myself that I cant wake up in the morning....due to low blood pressure. Mean while, many things we can predict....Oh yeah, what a coincidence my high school friend is going to Singapore as well this weekend. Last night, she text me and asked me where do I stay during my Singapore trip.
I told her, to text me when she is in Singapore.....cause we can meet up and hang up together. Its coming to the weekend then I am going to Singapore soon. Well, things can be happened very fast and things can turn around in very fast sapce too....Never have a thought a relationship can be complicated and as simple as a blank paper. We all feel sometime confused in a different situation, where we are in the triangular position.
Friday, April 18, 2008
Starbuck's Coffee as my breakfast
Have not updated my blog for 2 days. These 2 days I have cool and calm down myself by using meditation. Honestly, it helps me alot for my sleeping. I cant sleep very well during the night especially last 2 months I have the same bad nightmare which awake me during middle of the night. Was chatting with HIM last night. Find out that, we have less pressure in between the conversations. More over we are like more to a ' Buddy style' now.
I told him that, maybe sometime we need to have some struggles and difficulties in order to improve in our life. Maybe thats true for both of us, we have distance difficulties.
This morning went to Starbucks, honestly since the day I have broke off...I have change my taste and preference which previously I drink Hot Chocolate but now I cant live without the Coffee...at the first 2 days, I drank coffee but my heart-beat till 120 pulse per every mins...super fast right...I went to see doc, as he advised not to drink coffee too much, cause its caffein affect me to be ' super high' same LIKE people taking drugs. But I really cant make it because I need it to refresh myself especially during working hours. I remember I told HIM before not to drink coffee because it will not good for health, he said he will drink tea instead.
Sometime, I am thinking LOVE and relationship its quite unpredictable...love can come like a wind and flow over like a river....
Oh yeah, havent share my experience....this morning went to buy me coffee of the day...to start up my working. Fortunately, met a french guy...well I can say he is not that tall..maybe a slightly taller than me. Then he say ' Hi' to me, and saying that I look similar as his ex-wife. He thought I am her at first sight...he told me he has divorce and came to Malaysia working for 2 years plus. Well, honestly I dont want to know about it cause its none of my business too. But after I know he is a french and we start to have some conversation as I am telling him I m learning French language too. We have exchange our messenger, I told him I may need his help when I have some language problem...he feel very friendly to me and said ' Sure'.
Then we wave our hand and headed back to work.
Probably, its become my new beginning to meet friends now...its a good beginning too...hey..YOU remember to share things with me ya...I know you'll check it out my blog sometime. I told HIM,
yesterday was yesterday, today is today, we still have many new days to come'
I told him that, maybe sometime we need to have some struggles and difficulties in order to improve in our life. Maybe thats true for both of us, we have distance difficulties.
This morning went to Starbucks, honestly since the day I have broke off...I have change my taste and preference which previously I drink Hot Chocolate but now I cant live without the Coffee...at the first 2 days, I drank coffee but my heart-beat till 120 pulse per every mins...super fast right...I went to see doc, as he advised not to drink coffee too much, cause its caffein affect me to be ' super high' same LIKE people taking drugs. But I really cant make it because I need it to refresh myself especially during working hours. I remember I told HIM before not to drink coffee because it will not good for health, he said he will drink tea instead.
Sometime, I am thinking LOVE and relationship its quite unpredictable...love can come like a wind and flow over like a river....
Oh yeah, havent share my experience....this morning went to buy me coffee of the day...to start up my working. Fortunately, met a french guy...well I can say he is not that tall..maybe a slightly taller than me. Then he say ' Hi' to me, and saying that I look similar as his ex-wife. He thought I am her at first sight...he told me he has divorce and came to Malaysia working for 2 years plus. Well, honestly I dont want to know about it cause its none of my business too. But after I know he is a french and we start to have some conversation as I am telling him I m learning French language too. We have exchange our messenger, I told him I may need his help when I have some language problem...he feel very friendly to me and said ' Sure'.
Then we wave our hand and headed back to work.
Probably, its become my new beginning to meet friends now...its a good beginning too...hey..YOU remember to share things with me ya...I know you'll check it out my blog sometime. I told HIM,
yesterday was yesterday, today is today, we still have many new days to come'
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
An O'Brien Sandwich Lunch
Was sipping my cup of coffee and looking outside from my office window. So blurry and hazey which cant really see what the building within 5 metres. Its so heavily rain in Kuala Lumpur.
This afternoon walked with my colleagues to The Weld and toward the O'Brien Sandwich which we have planned earlier to dine our lunchie here. We have bought 2 lunch meals with a Mushroom soup. Three of us shared 2 sets of set meals. Was chit chatting about our future after leaving and so. That what we are doing right now. Especially we are women, a lot of gossips which we can share with each and other that where we can maked friends from different world and even far apart of near distance.
Saw there is the postcard session where display for the postcards, I took 2 postcards and sitting down in the sofa again. Got my pen and decide to write a few words to HIM....honestly feeling so down last week and now I'm getting really really better...because I know we cant force something which really cant work out. Even sometime we have the stubborn and think back that we shouldn't have this mindset. That's true.
This afternoon walked with my colleagues to The Weld and toward the O'Brien Sandwich which we have planned earlier to dine our lunchie here. We have bought 2 lunch meals with a Mushroom soup. Three of us shared 2 sets of set meals. Was chit chatting about our future after leaving and so. That what we are doing right now. Especially we are women, a lot of gossips which we can share with each and other that where we can maked friends from different world and even far apart of near distance.
Saw there is the postcard session where display for the postcards, I took 2 postcards and sitting down in the sofa again. Got my pen and decide to write a few words to HIM....honestly feeling so down last week and now I'm getting really really better...because I know we cant force something which really cant work out. Even sometime we have the stubborn and think back that we shouldn't have this mindset. That's true.
Monday, April 14, 2008
A Cup of Cafe Latte
Its almost end of the Monday Blue today. Feel relief after I tender my resignation to my Team Leader. I will still have another 2 more weeks in this company and will leave for a short break. Then join into another new company for my new begining of life.
Last night couldnt sleep well, was thinking a lot too. Maybe I shall not thinking for previous and move forward to a new begining of life now. So this morning I head to the Starbucks Coffee to get an espresso. Was little bit tired today and feel bit sleepy. Cause the weather also one of the reason of it. Thinking to get some express course for french language or other languages. I need to think of myself now. Was thinking to get one of the native from european language.
During the lunch time, went out with my colleague to have cup of Latte in Sans Francisco Coffee House. We talked about our failure in relationship, she had one too...but her situation its worse than me. Sometime, I am thinking maybe I should now get ready myself to travel around the world...to see how wonderful this whole it is. Last night chatted with a friend from Netherland too but not HIM...dun misunderstand. He told me that he also has just broke up with his Malaysian girlfriend in January 2008, due to his girlfriend has moved into Shanghai and fall in love with someone and then dump him insteadly.
Feel so sad for him, but he seem doesnt care anymore about it...maybe he is a man, thats different in between a man and a woman. A woman will feel depression after she has lost someone or something in her life. But as a man, they will easily forgotten what has happened even though just last night or not long ago.
I will try my best tooo.....in some moments should keep it but sometime should let it go instead to hold back. It will not benefit to both in no matter how.
Mean while, this morning I've chatted with one of my high school mate....suggested a pajama party which all in lingerie...sorry guys..not for you all...we are invite gals only...no permission for you all...we just wanna enjoy our fun and indulgence ourself in our life time with satin and lacey lingerie which we have forgotten ourself as a woman we should have something to pamper ourself.
Last night couldnt sleep well, was thinking a lot too. Maybe I shall not thinking for previous and move forward to a new begining of life now. So this morning I head to the Starbucks Coffee to get an espresso. Was little bit tired today and feel bit sleepy. Cause the weather also one of the reason of it. Thinking to get some express course for french language or other languages. I need to think of myself now. Was thinking to get one of the native from european language.
During the lunch time, went out with my colleague to have cup of Latte in Sans Francisco Coffee House. We talked about our failure in relationship, she had one too...but her situation its worse than me. Sometime, I am thinking maybe I should now get ready myself to travel around the world...to see how wonderful this whole it is. Last night chatted with a friend from Netherland too but not HIM...dun misunderstand. He told me that he also has just broke up with his Malaysian girlfriend in January 2008, due to his girlfriend has moved into Shanghai and fall in love with someone and then dump him insteadly.
Feel so sad for him, but he seem doesnt care anymore about it...maybe he is a man, thats different in between a man and a woman. A woman will feel depression after she has lost someone or something in her life. But as a man, they will easily forgotten what has happened even though just last night or not long ago.
I will try my best tooo.....in some moments should keep it but sometime should let it go instead to hold back. It will not benefit to both in no matter how.
Mean while, this morning I've chatted with one of my high school mate....suggested a pajama party which all in lingerie...sorry guys..not for you all...we are invite gals only...no permission for you all...we just wanna enjoy our fun and indulgence ourself in our life time with satin and lacey lingerie which we have forgotten ourself as a woman we should have something to pamper ourself.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Like or Love
Watched the movie name ' A Moment To Remember' last night. So coincidenly, it is on the TV which HIM introduce to watch it before. Its all about a young couple, the young lady has got an illness of azheilmer. I have chatted with HIM and he told not only the young lady its the ' victim' but also her husband and family. Because she has forgotten what she had it before. No memory in the brain at all. I wish I could have this kinda of illness now, so I cant forget everything previously and start a new life beginning.
Sometime, I am thinking 'like or love' doesnt mean being together will have the same happiness. Especially in now the modern world. A marriage doesnt mean forever,no one can guarantee a marriage could be forever, as a couple it can break it up. A marriage couple can divorce easily after married,maybe one day or 2 weeks. Its really possible in this world now.
Sometime You Like A Person doesnt mean You Love Her or Him. Its just a routine, you see him or her. That my own opinion.
Sometime, I am thinking 'like or love' doesnt mean being together will have the same happiness. Especially in now the modern world. A marriage doesnt mean forever,no one can guarantee a marriage could be forever, as a couple it can break it up. A marriage couple can divorce easily after married,maybe one day or 2 weeks. Its really possible in this world now.
Sometime You Like A Person doesnt mean You Love Her or Him. Its just a routine, you see him or her. That my own opinion.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Valisere Bra Fashion Show
Feel too bored today, went out to have walk with Rene my best girlfriend in the town. And she got me into an event which concious about the Bra and Inner Wear and Lingerie, I should say that. Well, its become more attractive when I heard about it. After we have a long walk in PC Fair then we dropped by to this event by Valisere also co-joint with Triumph a branded international company. The host was Gillian Hung was one of the famous designers and grooming director. Got a free gift from this Valisere, which it is a panty...embroided panty...nice but I guess its not cheap though.
After came back from the show and went back home. Suddenly in mind I am thinking one person, which its HIM.....most of the usual weekend usually I will chatted with him at this period pf time. He now dun even reply my sms, means he really feel bored of me....probably I should say...he has let me go instead of me. Sometime I am thinking if we are friends as before I rather choose as friend than a lover now. Its so hard and really cant think what the reason to become a friend now. Nevertheless, we have been for 3 years...yes...everyone thinking I ma getting it over...but honestly its really hard for me...3 years....maybe for each of us we have different thinking. We have changed in our mind...that we dont deny...else we can say we have grown up in certain way.
After came back from the show and went back home. Suddenly in mind I am thinking one person, which its HIM.....most of the usual weekend usually I will chatted with him at this period pf time. He now dun even reply my sms, means he really feel bored of me....probably I should say...he has let me go instead of me. Sometime I am thinking if we are friends as before I rather choose as friend than a lover now. Its so hard and really cant think what the reason to become a friend now. Nevertheless, we have been for 3 years...yes...everyone thinking I ma getting it over...but honestly its really hard for me...3 years....maybe for each of us we have different thinking. We have changed in our mind...that we dont deny...else we can say we have grown up in certain way.
Escape from Huang Shi
Last night me, dad and mom and an aunt we four of us when to watch a historical movie name ' Escape from Huang Shi'. It is actually from a true story-based become a movie. In this movie it is all about the journalist of George Hogg and beside a true story.
Well, i will prefer give it about 4 **** star for this movie, the movie story it is not bad. Especially my dad whom really likes this kinda of movie. Honestly, tell you gals and guys something, my mom and dad has been about more than 15 years did not walked into a cinema. Last night when the first impression to them walked into a cinema they are so surprise...wah nowsday cinema totally different from those years above 20 years ago.....Hahaha...then I explained now, its different century mom and dad, everything its more advanced now. I know they actually do not want to go cinema, but recently they know I have broke off into a relationship they have been worried for me...Mom and dad, dont worry about me...I am already big big gal la...I should know to control myself.
Oh yeah, we are going back to talk about the movie. George Hogg its a journalist from Britain to explore the war in Nanjing, it is all about the Nanjing war in 1937 then he escape from Nanjing to Huang Shi...and helped the children there...and he brought 60 over children to escape from Huang Shi to Shan Dan which very near to Gobi Sahara. The whole story it is about how he escape from the war and become a really ' man ' . I cried on the final part of the movie as he died because of tetanus. Because I m thinking even how good and kind person you're. You'll still died, I didnt mean to say that being a good person its good but one day someone will leave you include your family...they will not company you forever and live like forever and longevity.
Well, i will prefer give it about 4 **** star for this movie, the movie story it is not bad. Especially my dad whom really likes this kinda of movie. Honestly, tell you gals and guys something, my mom and dad has been about more than 15 years did not walked into a cinema. Last night when the first impression to them walked into a cinema they are so surprise...wah nowsday cinema totally different from those years above 20 years ago.....Hahaha...then I explained now, its different century mom and dad, everything its more advanced now. I know they actually do not want to go cinema, but recently they know I have broke off into a relationship they have been worried for me...Mom and dad, dont worry about me...I am already big big gal la...I should know to control myself.
Oh yeah, we are going back to talk about the movie. George Hogg its a journalist from Britain to explore the war in Nanjing, it is all about the Nanjing war in 1937 then he escape from Nanjing to Huang Shi...and helped the children there...and he brought 60 over children to escape from Huang Shi to Shan Dan which very near to Gobi Sahara. The whole story it is about how he escape from the war and become a really ' man ' . I cried on the final part of the movie as he died because of tetanus. Because I m thinking even how good and kind person you're. You'll still died, I didnt mean to say that being a good person its good but one day someone will leave you include your family...they will not company you forever and live like forever and longevity.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Longiness Evidenza
Oh gosh, saw the Longiness Evidenza watch...I really admire into it now. Another thing, which I have found out that I've addicted to the blog, it seem weird but since now I dun have anyone to talk with....then why not I share my things with you guys...
Do you think one day I should become the second of the J.K Rowling or maybe richer than her...a great blogger. Shut up man! Oh yeah, why change topic...we are just discussing about the Longiness Evidenza watch...oh my god, I feel admire on the watch...but what I've heard from my colleague it cost around RM 15K plus to get this watch...oh damn it, which that now I got a Millionaire boyfriend...haha...that the purpose to be a rich man girlfriend ya...
Was now looking for a good watch and then move a change of myself...I am too saving prevously which I dunno its a positive or not, but since I am relief from a bird cage, I should enjoy my freedom...gals and guy, do you agree on me?
Do you think one day I should become the second of the J.K Rowling or maybe richer than her...a great blogger. Shut up man! Oh yeah, why change topic...we are just discussing about the Longiness Evidenza watch...oh my god, I feel admire on the watch...but what I've heard from my colleague it cost around RM 15K plus to get this watch...oh damn it, which that now I got a Millionaire boyfriend...haha...that the purpose to be a rich man girlfriend ya...
Was now looking for a good watch and then move a change of myself...I am too saving prevously which I dunno its a positive or not, but since I am relief from a bird cage, I should enjoy my freedom...gals and guy, do you agree on me?
Friday Mood...on Red Bean and Green Bean Soup
Friday ....everyone its on the mood for the weekend, except for me.
They request to eat sweet dessert like red bean tong sui, unfortunately one of my colleagues today not in the office and I have forced to cook for the tong sui for today. Guess what, what kinda of electric appliance that we use to cook dessert in office, especially we are in not enough resources pantry.
Okok, now I open the guess. We use the rice cooker to cook the red bean & green bean tong sui. That what we use to cook for Bak Kut Teh as well.
Alright, I have got back to work while have to keep monitor my tong sui...I am the chef for the office today.
They request to eat sweet dessert like red bean tong sui, unfortunately one of my colleagues today not in the office and I have forced to cook for the tong sui for today. Guess what, what kinda of electric appliance that we use to cook dessert in office, especially we are in not enough resources pantry.
Okok, now I open the guess. We use the rice cooker to cook the red bean & green bean tong sui. That what we use to cook for Bak Kut Teh as well.
Alright, I have got back to work while have to keep monitor my tong sui...I am the chef for the office today.
My First No Direction Friday
Today become my first no drection Friday in all 3 years. As usual, this morning I woke up and back to work as norm. But what I mean no direction its because I dun feel like the Friday mood anymore, in my previous every Friday I will be damn really happy because hoping to coming on Saturday and chat with HIM. But today its my first feeling, I dont like Friday cause it could be my lonely weekend coming to me soon, as I wont chat with HIM anymore to share our happiness and sadness as usual as other normal couple.
But its gud feeling to me, that I will be really can forgotten him in a minute. Maybe let say in this way. I only met him 3 times in my 3 years relationship. Each times we meet only not more than 1 month. That what I am feeling that this relationship can be with or without him. Haha...maybe I become an analyze in this situation. As I am not going to looking back the previous 3 years times. But I am looking forward for my 30 years over. As HE always said long term, but HE dun even plan for the short term goal and now saying for Long TERM plan. What an i****t of him......opps sorry doesnt mean to say all of you...but it just a truth.
But its gud feeling to me, that I will be really can forgotten him in a minute. Maybe let say in this way. I only met him 3 times in my 3 years relationship. Each times we meet only not more than 1 month. That what I am feeling that this relationship can be with or without him. Haha...maybe I become an analyze in this situation. As I am not going to looking back the previous 3 years times. But I am looking forward for my 30 years over. As HE always said long term, but HE dun even plan for the short term goal and now saying for Long TERM plan. What an i****t of him......opps sorry doesnt mean to say all of you...but it just a truth.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
A One Millionaire Girlfriend
I guess I must be too free thinking too much on my situation. Who cares, blog it should be my world. My fantasay world. A man today asked me a question, I have ten million but I dont have a girlfriend.
He need a trial girlfirend in this moment, which long last for one month. He asked me a question, if I would pay you half million for you to be my girlfriend for one month, will you think of it to be my one month trial girlfriend.
If you have suceed to pass on this one month trial as my girlfriend, then I will definately marry you to be my official wife and you will be have a chauffeur, a kitchener and several of maids and few gardeners and of course a butler.
At first I am thinking, I marry a man who I doesnt love but a lot of money. Else I would choose that I love but he doenst loved me anymore and with the conflict with his family.
If you're me, which man you will choose....dear ladies, i know its such a difficult question but which one you prefer.
Give me some comment when you guys have really think about it.
He need a trial girlfirend in this moment, which long last for one month. He asked me a question, if I would pay you half million for you to be my girlfriend for one month, will you think of it to be my one month trial girlfriend.
If you have suceed to pass on this one month trial as my girlfriend, then I will definately marry you to be my official wife and you will be have a chauffeur, a kitchener and several of maids and few gardeners and of course a butler.
At first I am thinking, I marry a man who I doesnt love but a lot of money. Else I would choose that I love but he doenst loved me anymore and with the conflict with his family.
If you're me, which man you will choose....dear ladies, i know its such a difficult question but which one you prefer.
Give me some comment when you guys have really think about it.
In A Stardust Memory
I saw him online and dropped HIM a line to say HI. I've asked him a question, if given back you 3 years ago will you choose me to love me again or we still as like the friend like before, chat whole day and night....what we thinking. HE hardly answer me what the answer suppose to say to me, the word he can say its SORRY. I really kinda of bored hearing this word now ' I'M SORRY' doesnt mean sorry can cure everything.
I told him " Now I only realised that, previously its could be prioritize to be become a privilege to be number one in HIS heart but once HE said I've not feeling to you anymore and become the "stardust" the feeling never never will come back to previously.
I feel really weird, when all along we are as couple and love each other, it is will someday the ' A ' will tell you I have no feeling to you, what do feel. I just want to know the comment and feeling only.
What you will feel, if I told you first I already have another guy and I dont need YOU anymore.
I told him " Now I only realised that, previously its could be prioritize to be become a privilege to be number one in HIS heart but once HE said I've not feeling to you anymore and become the "stardust" the feeling never never will come back to previously.
I feel really weird, when all along we are as couple and love each other, it is will someday the ' A ' will tell you I have no feeling to you, what do feel. I just want to know the comment and feeling only.
What you will feel, if I told you first I already have another guy and I dont need YOU anymore.
New Life with my New Blogque
Its my first time using the new blog spot here.
Its my new life beginning and new blog, what I should write...perhaps not that kinda of old boring stuff again.
I am not going to write bout my relationship anymore, it all end and over. Never will like to talk about it anymore of HIM in my blog. Let's talk something more happy.....
Seriously I dunno how to use this blogspot, I am still new anyway....so what it is blog about. In many years ago, I wrote diary everynight....but I think now Blog become a diaries for each and everyone of our modern lifestyle in 21st century. More over, people now its damn lazy, thats true. One of my colleague told me, she doesnt like to write a word , perhaps if only signature then she has no choice to sign on the paper.
You can see the different nows day people, thats really lazy right. There are many type of people, include those looks HONEST but kinda of LIAR...included HIM....oppss..back to sorry we said before not to include HIM in our blogque right.
Alrite, boss is around my corner gotta blog it out now...see ya around.
Its my new life beginning and new blog, what I should write...perhaps not that kinda of old boring stuff again.
I am not going to write bout my relationship anymore, it all end and over. Never will like to talk about it anymore of HIM in my blog. Let's talk something more happy.....
Seriously I dunno how to use this blogspot, I am still new anyway....so what it is blog about. In many years ago, I wrote diary everynight....but I think now Blog become a diaries for each and everyone of our modern lifestyle in 21st century. More over, people now its damn lazy, thats true. One of my colleague told me, she doesnt like to write a word , perhaps if only signature then she has no choice to sign on the paper.
You can see the different nows day people, thats really lazy right. There are many type of people, include those looks HONEST but kinda of LIAR...included HIM....oppss..back to sorry we said before not to include HIM in our blogque right.
Alrite, boss is around my corner gotta blog it out now...see ya around.
My New Blogspot
Hi Ladies and Gentleman, this my new blog spot for me to release my sadness, happiness and sharing all my love to you all....
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